I have finally been able to admit to myself this year, that I have had a short-attention-span my whole life.I'm not being over dramatic. All this years I've been denying it but it was stark obvious to me this year. Sure, sometimes it's just carelessness. Sometimes it's just an 'I-can't-be-bothered' attitude. Sometimes it's a combination of all three. But lots of time it's just me unable to focus. Trust me, this trait has gotten me into trouble countless of times.
How about this? #1
My studies. Yup, get this; I barely ever concentrate in class. Not never but it's safe to say that I've probably been able to focus 25% during lessons my entire life. I'm not exaggerating.Don't believe me if you want but Allah is my witness. Honestly, it didn't affect my studies much during my PMR years. Well, that was because the flawed examination was all about memorizing. Ironically, I've been quite good with memorizing. So, not a really big deal. Whatever the teacher said in class, I always managed to comprehend them myself at home. See it's a stupidly redundant system!
It saddens me to say that the system didn't work out so well during Form Four because ouch, the subjects require a lot of understanding. Well the number of facts that we have to memorize have also increased. Double ouch. So this year, most people must have noticed that I've been slacking. Lots of homework undone.Oh why?
How about this? #2
Few years ago, my nickname was 'Blur'. It was also because of my facial expression which just screamed of 'I-don't-get-a-thing-you're-saying'. And also because of my inability to respond to questions at a normal rate. Before this, every time somebody talked to me, they required patience because I took long seconds to decipher simple questions. So my reply was always astonishingly slow. Thank God, I have improved massively in this area. I don't even know how my friends could stand me back then.
How about this? #3
My mom doesn't trust me. She's quite skeptical of me wanting to take my driving licence right after I'm eligible to drive. Even when it comes to holding on to keys, Alia is given more trust. Offensive? Hey, you probably won't find me disagreeing.
I've read an article from Readers' Digest that tv is one of the factors that we can't focus in real life. Lots of tv programmes have been created solely for entertainment. Nothing for potato couches to think too critically. Blargh, I don't watch tv that much. So it's probably from Facebook. And Blogger. And movies that I watch on the pc.
How about this? #1
My studies. Yup, get this; I barely ever concentrate in class. Not never but it's safe to say that I've probably been able to focus 25% during lessons my entire life. I'm not exaggerating.Don't believe me if you want but Allah is my witness. Honestly, it didn't affect my studies much during my PMR years. Well, that was because the flawed examination was all about memorizing. Ironically, I've been quite good with memorizing. So, not a really big deal. Whatever the teacher said in class, I always managed to comprehend them myself at home. See it's a stupidly redundant system!
It saddens me to say that the system didn't work out so well during Form Four because ouch, the subjects require a lot of understanding. Well the number of facts that we have to memorize have also increased. Double ouch. So this year, most people must have noticed that I've been slacking. Lots of homework undone.Oh why?
How about this? #2
Few years ago, my nickname was 'Blur'. It was also because of my facial expression which just screamed of 'I-don't-get-a-thing-you're-saying'. And also because of my inability to respond to questions at a normal rate. Before this, every time somebody talked to me, they required patience because I took long seconds to decipher simple questions. So my reply was always astonishingly slow. Thank God, I have improved massively in this area. I don't even know how my friends could stand me back then.
How about this? #3
My mom doesn't trust me. She's quite skeptical of me wanting to take my driving licence right after I'm eligible to drive. Even when it comes to holding on to keys, Alia is given more trust. Offensive? Hey, you probably won't find me disagreeing.
I've read an article from Readers' Digest that tv is one of the factors that we can't focus in real life. Lots of tv programmes have been created solely for entertainment. Nothing for potato couches to think too critically. Blargh, I don't watch tv that much. So it's probably from Facebook. And Blogger. And movies that I watch on the pc.
Okay, so I can't think of many examples right now. But example #1 has affected my life so badly. I've searched for ways to overcome this problem. I googled it! Moving on, I have already come up for a solution next year. And trust me, I can't take much of that any longer. Ten years is enough.Form Four has been too much of irrelevant daydreams during classes. I remember when I was in Form One, my science teacher had personally come to my table to explain something very simple which I had trouble of understanding. As she explained, I was staring at her hijab and just imagined her buying it.Don't get me wrong, I'm not a shopper, it was just a random thought. And so when she finished explaining, she asked, 'Do you understand?'. And in my head I was screaming ' What did she just say?!!!'.
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