Hand Me a Walking Stick

Lots of people talk about "Living life to its fullest" but I guess people say it more often than we actually witness them walk the talk.

I feel very old (technically, at this moment, this is the oldest I've ever been anyway). Well, remember how every year in high school  we felt youth abandoning us as we progressed form to form each year ? This time, it's pretty much the same but imagine that feeling intensified multiple times. When strangers ask which university are you studying at, you can't say, "I'm still a school kid" any longer. 

I know I sound very whiny and I hate sounding whiny but I can't help it. I feel a tad bit sad that I haven't accomplished much. This feeling only intensified after watching a documentary about Mehmed al-Fatih who conquered Constantinople at the age of 21/22 . Mind you, it wasn't any piece of land it was Istanbul, the land the Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) said;

"Verily you shall conquer Constantinople. What a wonderful leader will her

leader be, and what a wonderful army will that army be!"

I'm not done yet. Matt Mullenwag started Wordpress at the age of 19, Avicenna (Ibn Sina) was a qualified physician when he was 18. The list goes on. And me? At 18, I've managed to consistently waste away my freedom by more-than-sufficient sleep and unlimited usage of the internet. Wohoo ~

Don't worry, I know that I am the problem. I think I know how to solve it but I just lack discipline. I don't know how to end this properly so asdfghjkl....